Full Steam Ahead

Every morning I make myself a latte in my espresso machine.
I put the water in and I wait for the pressure to build so it can steam my milk. Right before that release happens, everything gets so loud and there is nowhere for that pressure to go except out.
And then everything just stops.
Things are just so still.

So for me, where I am in my life right now, it's like the steam just came out.

Everything has just stopped and it's so so quiet around here.

This last few weeks has been complete mayhem with the shut down of my work, the stress of buying our first house, vacation planning, and all three of us being sick.
Then yesterday, I got a phone call from our lender saying that she finally has everything that she needs for our loan. There is no more paperwork to send or forms to sign until we close on the 25th. It was also my final shift at work. The beer companies came and picked up all their left overs, the regulars came and had their final cocktails, and I finished my final close-out paperwork. California is only 5 days away but the major plans have already been planned, outfits have already been packed, airplane busy bag ideas have already been taken care of...

So that's it for now,

I guess?
Right?

I woke up this morning and I don't have anything pressing to get done. It's snowing outside so Jason is off work, it's Saturday so Kalynn is home from school, and none of us have anything to do.

It is the most bizarre feeling I think I've ever had in my life. 

I suppose I'll start packing up the house, maybe work on some new recipes, drink a lot of wine and just hang out for a while.
Sounds terrible, right?

Most people would kill to have a month break but for whatever reason I feel completely lost and in a full on panic.

So.
To sum up:
expect a few of these random posts from me this month.

Because I don't have anything better to do.